Trust - Part 2 
by Becky Rule

God never gives up on gently building my faith and teaching me to wait. At this stage of our journey He has made it clear to us that He is building a foundation. I have recognized that as necessary, but hadn't actually thought it out…till now. As I've gone over in my mind all that is required in constructing the foundation of a building, I've realized a lot of digging is required. In digging a foundation, one must go deep. Digging removes the old, making room for the new. Gouges, scars and piles are temporarily left for all to see. Digging is messy, and it takes time. I've discovered that sometimes I don't like digging, especially when I am the one being delved into. Ugly things are dredged up and exposed. One ugly thing recently revealed to me is the constant and subtle temptation to justify my existence-the tendency to work at proving I am useful by what I do--and to prop up a particular image. Sometimes I wonder if we settle for appearing outwardly successful because we do not want to wait any longer for God to show up as He promised. Sometimes it is agony to wait for Him. It takes far more strength to trust and wait, suffering misunderstanding, humiliation, frustration, uncertainty and any number of things while God builds things His way, in His time. It didn't look like God would show up when Jesus died, and sometimes it doesn't look like He will show up today. He keeps encouraging me to have faith in Him and what He is doing, reminding me that justifying my existence and presenting a positive image is a flimsy substitute for His foundation of Truth. It is impossible to experience true rest until Jesus is our sole foundation. As painful as it is to have all but Jesus torn away, dismantled and rearranged, I am thankful that He pursues what is best for me. I have unknowingly placed my trust in good, steady things which promised me security, when in actuality they were layers of false floors blocking me from reaching Him. Thankfully they eventually rotted through, revealing hidden danger. Jesus is our keeper and He holds us; false foundations require us to hold them. Rest cannot occur until He is all that is left. When all our assumptions, plans, philosophies and beliefs have proven themselves untrustworthy, we can see with clarity that He is all we have.